Exhausted...

Am I getting older?

I guess I am.

Feel so tired even though I ain't doing much.

Must be headache!

Hehehe

Went Ipoh to custom make my dress.

Cost me a bomb!!!

*KaBoooom*

Pray hard it's gonna looks exactly how I imagined it s'posed to be.

=)

And of course, I went to get some delicious Ching Han Guan's cookies.

This time, no yolk (sad...)

But it's healthier for dad and mom =)

We sapu 10 in less than 2 hours.

Scary right?... -.-

Fetch Pan back from boarding pet shop.

They messed him up again.

Haiz....

Spent money and invited more mess to myself...

Just brilliant!

Stupid Cindy went Nong & Jimmy without me AGAIN!

But it's ok.

My mom cooked us super duper extra ordinary tasty delicious tomato crabs!

*grin*

Haiz... 22.48pm

I didn't have time to do my work...

This month gonna submit 0% again T_T

Kanasai...

Suak, shower time!

Hehehe =)

Glad

Indeed I do.

Frankly speaking, it's a great relief to know that you are doing well beyond expectations.

One true brave lil lady.

Just like the person I knew, or, maybe more, or maybe, not.

So, I guess it's time to bid good-bye.

Time to claim the space you took long, long ago.

I wish you good luck and;

I hope your words will come true.

And truly it is what I wish it would too.

So long, my once-bosom-friend.

Its 5

My baby turns 5 tonight.

Happy Birthday.

感受

一个人，

让人反感 ，

让人在背后嘲骂，讽刺，指责……　

如此人格，本该避而远之。

但是，

深入一层的想想，

我同情这人。

本身已是悲剧，

周遭不愉快的事一摞摞。

悲上加悲，痛上加痛。

不懂这人的处境还会有多坏，

也不懂这人的造化会是怎样，

更不懂会不会有人明白这人的苦衷。

但是，

肯定的，

如果肯看开，

不在钻牛角尖，

那么，

领悟，

应该不远吧……

B'day!

Blogging from office... Hiakhiakhiak... Challenging Ivan =X

Oh, Birthday!

I hope those who still remember =) , sms me (I know they're busy to call) by 9.59am on 5th August 2009.

Why?

Hahahaha, that will be the exact time I was born 24 years back then.......... 24 liao =)

Everybody keep asking me what I want for B'day!.

I still remember mouse pestering me asking for a list =S

I told her I want a kennel for Pan. Hahahahaha~

All I can say is, I need a lot yet I need nothing =S

Moving house soon, need a lot money to furnish my room.

However, I don't need anything from you guys because I really don't know what I want for B'day!.

Hmm... we'll see ;)

It's Been Awhile

Yea, I haven't 'have time' to log in blogspot for quite a long while =X Was busy with all the holiday things going around.

Too much to mention, so, lets put it this way =)

Birthday (mao's)... gave her pressie ^^

Shopping (not for clothes)...

Pan (he's ill again -.-)...

Food (Nong & Jimmy! yumz)...somebody can't take spicy food! and he don't wanna admit (evil grin) xD

Traveling... Perhentian with family

Swimming...

Snorkelling...

Sun burning (-.-)...

Engagement party...

Reunion party...

Company stuff (lotsa work -.-)... rush rush rush!

Sipadan preparation...

Fying... again xD

Snorkelling... again xD (knock my forehead cuz of the stupid humhead gruper... injured my toes cuz the fin too small -.-...)

Sun burning... again -.- ( i am so god damn tan now xD )

People... (met some funny people and a seal name SanSan)

Water-lodge-night-party-head-banging... (not me >"<)

Shopping... (bought advocados, dried salted fish (uncle bluff me!), sipadan T-shirt and a very cool Freakenstein keychain *he got 2 screws on his head* ^^ )

Delayed flight... (bloody AirAsia, screw u!)

Half day off... (touched down around 0130 -.- its am... reach home at 0230!!)

Back to work... -.- sick!

Back to home! =D... (mom said I look like indian... er... I think I look like Thais oO?)

back to work again... T_T

Sea sick... (according to what master R says... low suga level nia lah...)

Empty-office... (they went to Eagle Ranch without me T_T wuwu... I hope you guys "HAD" fun without me! hmphz! T_T yong shiuh rong, dun lanci me! )

LRT... (bloody lei si bian -.- she or 'he' whacked my back and buttock! argh !! =.= )

Early saturday =D (woke up and work!)

Vet... (pan's session, but i saw the doc diggin into a cat's tummy -.- *puke* when i reach there, surgery)

Poor... (Ken and i never withdraw, and Pan's consultation cost 85, i dug out 65, Ken dug out 10, I dug out another 5, we both dug out another 2 each and we're short of 1 buck!!! -.- haiz... dun worry, he got 1 buck in his car... end up, we both left 70 cents ^^ its just hilarious!!)

Bakuteh @ Kepong (i still find their rice wine chicken soup better than bakuteh >"<)

Diamond club... (i <3 show =")">Mongolian girl showing acrobatics, we're so lucky. When we're 14, we might still day dreaming)

3 o'clock nagger... (BEAR! Nagging professor =.= ok, gotta go sleep or else he'll nag 4eva...)

oh oh, don't forget... I miss my best buddies T-T I've not seen them for so long... wuwuwu

IRRITATED!

ARGHHH!!

I hate being irritated!

I hate being irritated by myself when I feel irritated by something else!

I don't mean to say those horrible words, but I can't control my terrible, idiotic demeanour...

I hate this f****-up feeling so damn much!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

I should stay in deep jungle...

Place like Amazon, deep enough so nobody will come near me.

Stay outta the way!

It's 49% Suay only

Its only 49% suay because...

1. Bus to perhentian got delayed 5 hours, which I never encounter before.

2. Thing I wish so hard not to come, came.... on the same night waiting for bus.

3. Coral View Resort, ranked no. 2 at Perhentian Besar... and the only word I can use to describe them, "Cincai".

4. Mom got sick during the trip.

5. Lost my pouch which contains - id card, driving license, atm cards, company access card (don't ask me why I bring it to holiday -.-), touch & go, medical cards and $ (sobz)

6. Lodge police report in the middle of midnight.

7. Slow working police officers, as usual.

8. Found out Pan's right eye swollen, vet said its infection from boarding place and it irritates him a lot... 

51 % lucky because =)

1. Officially, 1st family trip, which organized by me xD

2. Everybody love the trip xD

3. Mom and dad went snorkeling and got to see turtle and sharks which convinced my mom that's better than watching them on National Geographic (she loves that channel too) =D

4. They are always there to support me when I'm Suay (hahahaha), Ken and Sis send me to lodge report and make new ic. Thank you so much (touched) Dad sponsored me $ cuz I'm MC Hammer Broke!

5. Cab driver returned my "old" ic, blocked atm card, bla bla bla except my touch & go (still got 50+, argh) and another atm card. My dad said, they took Maybank card cuz its a debit card too. 

6. Most important, we're planning other things =X that means more holiday xD

p/s: everybody keeps on telling me, we Cow community are suay this year, well, I still find myself lucky =)

Swimmer

I was on his back. I was lil girl again.

He still looks the way he was the last time I saw him, how I remembered him.

He was carrying me across the lake behind the wooden house.

A huge lake left after mining activities.

I was unable to see his face, but I knew it was him.

The back that is familiar to me and all members who bear his name.

Funny thing was, this was the third time I dreamt of him.

No violence, no killing, no bullets, no guns, no bombs and no victims.

I'm glad, he's not reloading bullet and instructing me to shot on the head of the unknown victim again.

It was warmy, I remembered I was clenching my wrists.

So, logically, I wasn't holding anything beside "sitting" on his back.

Hahahaha.... He swarm very fast, I mean, really fast.

I think its the whole "Hollywood" thing that has got into me...

He was actually swimming like how Zohan did when he was pursuing the bad guy -.-

Butterfly stroke... in high velocity... Omfg..............

After that, he lied down on the bed inside the kitchen of his wooden house. Covered up with few layers of blankets and shivering. I was thinking, is that a message from him that he don't have enough clothes in the other world?

ahaha, I don't really believe in that.

Seriously, it was so god damn hilarious that I laughed my arse out in the middle of the dawn, 5am after Pan did his stunt again outside...

AhGong, you are still humourous in your way =)

-RIP-

Saturday

7.30 am > heard some noise. 

                Venice changing clothes -.- 

                went back to sleep.

7.45 am > opened my eyes out of a sudden.

                 Venice said, "he's here, get up"

                 Oh... dimsum for breakfast... 

                 *struggling* to eat, or sleep...?

8.00 am > in Ken's wira -.-"

             > sis gonna be late for work, but she said nevermind... nevermind?

             

8.15 am > har gao seems not as nice as usual

                prawns not crunchy punya! -.-

                but, still eating non-stop... haiz... har gao addicts

8.30 am > plates serving steamed pork rib, yam croquettes, siu mai and har gao are emptied =D

             > Venice asking, "anything else you all wanna eat?"

             > you take what you like and we'll eat lah, came from Tommy... 

             > hahaha, smart kid. (tradition, the person who ordered has the responsibility to finish if others can't)

8.31 am> "anything you guys want?" Venice      

8.32 am > "anything?" Venice

8.33 am > "..." Venice

             > "hmm, porridge?" me

             > "YEA" Venice

             > "..., why don't you just say so at first...?" Ken

             > (Lesson: no matter what happened, always take care of your gf's face) 

             > SFX: Ken got whacked.... 

8.40 am > why the porridge taking so long.... 

8.48 am> wah, a lot ... can 5 of us finish all?  oO?

8. 50 am > steaming, hot, ... yummie =X

9.10 am > Ampang, sis went work. Late.

10. 00 am > disturbed ali's sleep. 

                > went to sleep =X

X.XX xx >  phone rang

               > "its 2 pm" Ali

               > "wtf?!....2 pm..?!"

2.45 pm > vet, "he's scratching like mad because of the minch"

              > *minch?* 

              > "it might infect human if interact too often"

              > *infect...! x_X ... holy... cow?*

              > Pan still wagging his tail while vet injecting ... hehe -.-" 

3.05 pm > sms Ali, reminder for tennis

4.22 pm > MSG: "I'm on my way", Ali

              > *I thought we should be playing by 4.30 pm...  slow... late...* -.-

              > watching Rosy Business (巾帼枭雄) online

              > its faster than Astro on Demand =X

4.50 pm > kids playing basketball, makin me frustrated while playing 

              > one... two... three... *counting* 

              > *twelve kids, serve and whack one by one* -evil grin-

           

6.00 pm > Tommy got stalked in the swimming pool... by a kid -.-" and the mom besides... -_-"""

7.10 pm > NZ, dinner, lotsa food... FOOD -.-

8.00 pm > Carefour, need to get ... food... for Sunday...

              > *I wanna cook this, this , this and this....* thinking since Friday night -.-"

9.00 pm > racist chicken butcher only serves those malay aunties ... (diu... -.-)

9.30 pm > watching Rosy Business last episode... 

              > nice story, educational too

              > still...

              > the ending doesn't impress me much... tvb's... like usual =) 

              > still...

              > much much better than the stupid 82 episodes long story -.- 

              > which i gave up to watch....

10.00 pm > work... work... work

                > start up my note pad... 

10.01 pm > *hmmm... few days never check facebook*

10.05 pm > *hmmm... few weeks never update blog*

11.03 pm > *hmmm.... 11 pm liao... still writing....*

11.03.30 pm > *hmmm... work tomorrow...? I can read Sabriel first =X*

11.04 pm > Sabriel xD

Crap!

为什么那么粗鲁？哈！我活得不耐烦了！干纳赛………………　已经日复一日，no no，actually　已经一年了，我不想在重复多一年啊…………　

近来发生很多事，多得我有点透不过气来。不好的事情都发生在好朋友，亲人，Pan， etc etc身上。心情都没恢复过来。今早，同事发了一封电邮，关于吉旦岛上被流放的野狗。

http://www.mycen.com.my/sightings/sightings030509_pulau_ketam_dogs.html

看完一整篇，Gloria Jeans muffin就酱喂垃圾桶了。一整天的心情，就酱泡汤了。看见那些小狗，让我想起DeDe。我要帮他们！So,　我发电邮给Sabrina，希望可以帮他们做些什么的…… 

我们身边，每一天都有不公平，残忍，不人道等的事情发生。尽力了，无愧于心。

I still believe, all dogs go to heaven =)

我家的"西施PUG" =D

昨天，终于有时间带Pan去姐姐的同事介绍的那间Animal Clinic。虽然诊所在焦赖，但，以Kenneth的“车神”技术，在很塞车的情况下我们只用了不到半小时。哈哈哈！一路上，Pan坐在后坐位的中间，还一直把头往前伸，用他那小小的鼻子来poke Kenneth的手臂，抗议我姐和Kenneth把冷气给挡住了 -.-" 

到了！因为诊所在Steven's Corner那一排，所以一点也不难找到。Pan很兴奋，一定是以为我们带他去玩。笨蛋！哈哈哈！

兽医的样子很像普通医生的爸爸那样。那种穿着芭迪上衣和黑色长裤还有黑色的凉鞋（像我阿公穿的那种），跟Animal Hospital那些medics差好远。因为，他们就好像ER里面那些医护人员。其实，有点怀疑那兽医，行吗？-.-

诊所里只有他，所以当他为Pan做检查时还要应付其他要买狗粮或猫粮的顾客。当他在柜台应付客人时，我们就开始留意周围。他的东西很凌乱，地方太窄，货太多，空气很不流通。墙上挂着他的兽医执照，1975年。。。竟然当了三十多年的兽医！

他说了一些东西，像在自言自语多些。他讲话喜欢对着墙壁，我真的听不到啦…… 后来才懂，他问Pan会不会咬人……我心想“什么东西？你攻击他，当然咬你啦……”。 但，妈妈说要以礼待人 =X 我说他很乖，放心吧。我就懂他没有在听我讲 -.-" 他已经动手在用牛仔布的绳子绑Pan的嘴了！我跟我姐交换一个不赞同的眼神。算了，做了那么久的兽医，应该有两把刷子吧？

突然他转过身，拿了一把小刀然后在Pan的颈项开始刮。很出力的刮咧！-.- 然后开始流血，我们三人都看傻眼了…… WTF?! Animal Hospital从没有对Pan用过那么粗鲁的方式来做skin scrapping。wtf wtf?! 心痛死了。但是，那冬瓜竟然在。。。摇尾巴？！Shit，高兴什么啦？ -.-

医生检查后说，他的皮肤有Parasite，他说了一些科学名称，我听不懂。但我懂情况比Animal Hospital说的Fungul Infection好得多。医生给Pan注射了Anti-Parasite Serum然后在添加一些药物。Kenneth问他，多久后要回来复诊。他想想，好像有点儿迷糊的样子然后说 “不能好就在回来咯”……有种被打败的感觉。通常Animal Hospital会要求我每星期带Pan回去复诊一次。

回家路上，我们交换了意见。姐姐说这个兽医很有很多顾客，因为他很老实。她同事的狗狗也有皮肤病，看了一阵子就好了。她也懂Pan的状况，既然在Animal Hospital花了那么久的时间和金钱，倒不如换这家。这次真的只花了一百块，比Animal Hospital便宜好多好多哦。

为了要上药，我们就带Pan去grooming。我们交待宠物店的groomer说，“I want him clean!”意思就是要剔光光！过了几小时，Kenneth帮我去接他回家。姐姐交待说不可以笑他难看，要不然他可会像我姐姐的狗狗一样，患上忧郁症！

一开门他就冲进家里，第一眼看去，我的西施变Pug了。哈哈哈，短短的白色毛，肥肥的肚腩，黑黑的眼睛，我的妈…… I've got myself a shihtzu-pug now =D

三个星期大的Pan

一岁大，毛很长，很难打理！

因为皮肤病，所以要戴Neckie。

留学回来后他就开始有皮肤敏感了

现在的毛是比这样子还要短很多很多 T-T

我的Ideology

朋友问我，男友、家人、朋友还有Pan，由最重要排起，我会怎么编排……

我想了一下，反问，你呢？

他笑说，他想证明他懂我的想法。

那么，我说，家人，Pan和朋友同重量，然后就是男友。

他笑问，男友怎么了？

我说，

不管发生什么事情，家人永远都对我不离不弃。他们要求不多，只要我快乐。

Pan跟家人一样，永远都会等我回家。而我，习惯性的一回家就想看到他、跟他玩。而且，我永远都不会用“它”或“it”，我只用“他”和“he” =)

 

朋友跟Pan对我来说都一样那么重要。

*不要小看Pan在我心目中的地位，也不要觉得我的朋友连狗都不如*

我选朋友，真的真的很谨慎。哈哈……所以，我的朋友“很多”，都是hi and bye的类型。知心的，只有你们了 ^^~（you know who you are!)

再来，男友嘛……嗯……哈哈……还是单身好。=X

朋友说，做你的男友，真的连狗都“不如”了！ 

我说，所以我只爱Pan嘛……

哈哈……没办法，男人，有时候真的真的真的比女人(Aunties)还要烦人…… 

Superwoman

I'm not happy cause they are not happy.

I'm not happy cause they are worried.

I'm not happy cause they are frowning.

I'm not happy cause they are uneasy. 

I'm not happy cause they can't sleep well at night.

I'm not happy cause they can't think positive at all.

I'm not happy cause they are facing loads of problems.

I'm not happy cause I can't help much.

I'm not happy cause I'm not superwoman...

I hope they will be happy again.

I hope they won't worry much again.

I hope they won't frown for those pain again.

I hope they will be at ease to enjoy every moment of life again.

I hope they can have sweet dreams all night long again.

I hope positive is the only way they view life again.

I hope those problems will never come back again.

I hope I can stay happily with them again.

I hope I don't have to feel to be like a superwoman to help again.

They are Coming! =D

My parents are coming =D 

YAY~~~ 

Although its my Pa's checkup, but I'm still excited  ^^~

Mom said my Pa changed his hair style and she said he looks kiddie =X

Have to see it for myself!

Counting down... hehehehehe.

Can't wait for 5.30pm xD

You Will Be Struck!

至世界上所有的人渣负心汉，

To all the arseholers in this world,

你们会得到报应的！

You will be struck by lightning!

很快地……

Very soon =)

游子的任意门

我要一扇门，一扇专为了游子而设的门。

就像Doremon里面的任意门……

Harry Potter里面的Portal， 虽然需要Port Key……

Heroes里的Hiro Nakamura（他会做Time Travel）……

我要一开门就可以回家~~~ 

请不要告诉我任意门可以让人‘任意’的做任何事情，我不管，这扇门只可以回家！

（我就是酱霸道的啦……吹咩！）

回来KL后，看什么都不顺眼。

车……多了，也大辆了，烦死。

食物……味精多了，难吃多了。

人……也多了，而且还是‘冷’的。

天空……朦胧的，鼻子里的content也多了。。。  ‘工作’也多了。。。

心情……郁闷的，提不起劲，容易烦躁的……

工作……明天开工了。。。

。。。

。。

。。。。

一点都不想去………………

今年红包也少了，可是用拜年换回来的时间可以个家人过，划算多了^^

最后，还是Pray Hard Hard  希望今年一切顺顺利利 ^^ 

p/s: 哈比牛儿 !!

My New Story Book

Although it's a higher level children reading material, I still appreciate it, and thanks to the person who treats me like a 'child' =X

~* The Tales of Beedle The Bard *~

Thanks for the gift ^^

I Feel Bad

Feeling really bad... 

I mean real bad type of bad. 

I dunno how to express the degree of how bad it is, but it is utmost bad which I ever felt in my life. 

Bad....

When the feeling started to conquer me, I have no mood to eat, no mood to talk, no mood to play, no mood to read, no mood to move, at all! 

I duno what the hell is wrong with me and I really hate this.

I don't wanna be negative but I just can't help but keep thinking on the negative side.

Don't try to comfort me, I know all those stupid positive thinking theories more than anyone else.

I am so afraid that I will loose control of myself and start to bombing people around me anytime soon.

Especially those who cares a lot.

Sometimes, I salute myself for being able to control myself when I have to even though I'm feeling like stabbing people in my heart. 

Hahahaha.................

I don't know that is pathetic or what, and I don't know how long I'll be able to do this. 

Loosing balance for quite a while and its not good. 

Not good.