I Feel Bad

Feeling really bad... 

I mean real bad type of bad. 

I dunno how to express the degree of how bad it is, but it is utmost bad which I ever felt in my life. 

Bad....

When the feeling started to conquer me, I have no mood to eat, no mood to talk, no mood to play, no mood to read, no mood to move, at all! 

I duno what the hell is wrong with me and I really hate this.

I don't wanna be negative but I just can't help but keep thinking on the negative side.

Don't try to comfort me, I know all those stupid positive thinking theories more than anyone else.

I am so afraid that I will loose control of myself and start to bombing people around me anytime soon.

Especially those who cares a lot.

Sometimes, I salute myself for being able to control myself when I have to even though I'm feeling like stabbing people in my heart. 

Hahahaha.................

I don't know that is pathetic or what, and I don't know how long I'll be able to do this. 

Loosing balance for quite a while and its not good. 

Not good.

Replying her and her Tags =)

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1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

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Time: 23:57
Name: sally
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 2
Shoe size: 5,6,7 (don't ask why)
Height: 158 cm
Favourite drinks: uncertain
Favourite breakfast: curry instant noodle (mamee) + 1 egg and vege

Have you ever...
Been on a plane: yes
Swam in the ocean: yes
Fallen asleep in school: ar boh?
Broken someone's heart: yes, I'm sorry
Fell off your chair: yes -.-
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: no
Saved e-mails: yes
Chicken pox: standard 4
Sore throat: having it right now *wtf*
Stitches: don't plan to have any
Broken nose: nope
What is your room like: a room with a queen size bed which now kena raid by a Shih Tzu... duh?!
What's right beside you: pc lappy pc
What is the last thing you ate: ginger... damn freaking lots of ginger

Do you...
Believe in love at first sight: does doggie count?
Like picnics: no
Who was the last person you danced with: pan
Last made you smile: my slav3

Today did you...
Talk to someone you like: daily routine
Kissed anyone: pan
Get sick: soar throat and coughing ... diao...
Talked to an ex: yes
Miss someone: yes
Best feeling in the world: swimming in deep blue sea
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: I got living animal to hug ... -.- or butthug... -_-
What's under your bed: no idea
What time is it now: 00.06am (and planning to stop answering -.- bloody long..)

Random Qs...
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: Yes
Q: Do you have any siblings: don't repeat question la!!
Q: Do you want children: does doggie count?
Q: Do you smile often: c'mon... its daily routin...
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: yes, although it looks like shit
Q: Are your toenails painted: yes
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: nobody's *wtf is wrong with this Q?*
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: white pink blue yellow black purple *my pj*
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: knocked by sombody's bed
Q: I can't wait till: java
Q: When did you cry last: when watching 10 promises to my dog... 1st time cried in cinema... kns...
Q: Are you a friendly person: no, anti-social
Q: Do you have any pets: yes, an overweight doggie
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: sleeping under my chair
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? no
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on? : no
Q:What are you doing right now?: wtf is wrong with the person who set this Q?!
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window?: yes... and stucked... happy?
Q: Can you handle the truth?: yes
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father?: close to both
Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of?: -.- only the person will know
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved?: no idea
Q: Do you eat healthy?: too bad, tasty food are always unhealthy
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: yes
Q: How often do you go to church?: i'm a freethinker
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: i rather stay at home watch dvd and eat maggi
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: depends
Q: Are you confident?: depends
Q: 5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. Kicking ppl's butt (taekwondo sparring)
2. Got my blackbelt (taekwondo)
3. Got my state seat (taekwondo)
4. Won my 1st state rep gold medal (taekwondo)
5. Become chairperson of the club (taekwondo) ... violent nye =X

Q: 5 snacks I enjoy: junk food junk food junk food junk food and junk food
Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire: donate half of it to WWF and build a freaking huge play ground for pan and the rest give to my family
Q: 5 of my bad habits: stubborn, emo, bad temper, -ve degree patience, likes to use foul language
Q: Places I have lived in: kedah, perak, KL, Uk
Q: 5 jobs I've had: cashier, label cleark, linguist... sorry, I'm young

FINALLY.... wada... -.-

Tagging:
YOU, you know who you are =) Don't give excuses!
Bear >"<
Conta =D
Cindy ^^
Loo =D