IRRITATED!

ARGHHH!!

I hate being irritated!

I hate being irritated by myself when I feel irritated by something else!

I don't mean to say those horrible words, but I can't control my terrible, idiotic demeanour...

I hate this f****-up feeling so damn much!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

I should stay in deep jungle...

Place like Amazon, deep enough so nobody will come near me.

Stay outta the way!

It's 49% Suay only

Its only 49% suay because...

1. Bus to perhentian got delayed 5 hours, which I never encounter before.

2. Thing I wish so hard not to come, came.... on the same night waiting for bus.

3. Coral View Resort, ranked no. 2 at Perhentian Besar... and the only word I can use to describe them, "Cincai".

4. Mom got sick during the trip.

5. Lost my pouch which contains - id card, driving license, atm cards, company access card (don't ask me why I bring it to holiday -.-), touch & go, medical cards and $ (sobz)

6. Lodge police report in the middle of midnight.

7. Slow working police officers, as usual.

8. Found out Pan's right eye swollen, vet said its infection from boarding place and it irritates him a lot... 

51 % lucky because =)

1. Officially, 1st family trip, which organized by me xD

2. Everybody love the trip xD

3. Mom and dad went snorkeling and got to see turtle and sharks which convinced my mom that's better than watching them on National Geographic (she loves that channel too) =D

4. They are always there to support me when I'm Suay (hahahaha), Ken and Sis send me to lodge report and make new ic. Thank you so much (touched) Dad sponsored me $ cuz I'm MC Hammer Broke!

5. Cab driver returned my "old" ic, blocked atm card, bla bla bla except my touch & go (still got 50+, argh) and another atm card. My dad said, they took Maybank card cuz its a debit card too. 

6. Most important, we're planning other things =X that means more holiday xD

p/s: everybody keeps on telling me, we Cow community are suay this year, well, I still find myself lucky =)

Swimmer

I was on his back. I was lil girl again.

He still looks the way he was the last time I saw him, how I remembered him.

He was carrying me across the lake behind the wooden house.

A huge lake left after mining activities.

I was unable to see his face, but I knew it was him.

The back that is familiar to me and all members who bear his name.

Funny thing was, this was the third time I dreamt of him.

No violence, no killing, no bullets, no guns, no bombs and no victims.

I'm glad, he's not reloading bullet and instructing me to shot on the head of the unknown victim again.

It was warmy, I remembered I was clenching my wrists.

So, logically, I wasn't holding anything beside "sitting" on his back.

Hahahaha.... He swarm very fast, I mean, really fast.

I think its the whole "Hollywood" thing that has got into me...

He was actually swimming like how Zohan did when he was pursuing the bad guy -.-

Butterfly stroke... in high velocity... Omfg..............

After that, he lied down on the bed inside the kitchen of his wooden house. Covered up with few layers of blankets and shivering. I was thinking, is that a message from him that he don't have enough clothes in the other world?

ahaha, I don't really believe in that.

Seriously, it was so god damn hilarious that I laughed my arse out in the middle of the dawn, 5am after Pan did his stunt again outside...

AhGong, you are still humourous in your way =)

-RIP-